It's Aliiiiivveeee

Yeah, it's been a while. All the stuff with the house and moving and unpacking...and avoiding unpacking...mainly that. i still have so much to do that i so don't feel like doing.

11/27/06 holy crap, i started the above in september! apparently i havent been on here in a while. busy still. with things outside of home mainly. still working on crap at the house. still rearranging and trying to get rid of stuff. now i have an electrical issue that needs to be taken care of and a sinking porch. i was able to get a lot done over the long weekend thanks to my boyfriend. yup, there is a boyfriend. hence the being busy! hahahaa! so he helped a lot this weekend since we were both off. there is still a lot to do, but this weekend jump started things. i really want to get stuff done now. now that he helped me do a couple things that i couldn't do on my own. oh, and i developed bursitis in my left shoulder in august, so i havent' been able to do much lifting or anything. i haven't even played tennis since labor day weekend. so that's another reason i haven't been able to do certain things...cuz i've needed someone to come move something or whatever. so some big things got done so i can start on little stuff that i can handle on my own. i haven't even changed one of my clocks because i have to reach up for it and it's in a weird spot. things are starting to come together a little better now. just needed to get into a groove.

I'm Officially Moved In!!

I have Finally gotten all my crap moved in!! Yesterday I made my last couple of trips to the old house to clean up and move the last few things out. Although I did forget some popsicles in the freezer. Now I just need to get it all arranged in my new place. WOW i have a ton of shit! I'm seriously going to have to go thru everything and get rid of stuff. How did I collect so much crap?!?

Still Moving

Holy crap i'm pooped! I've been moving crap all weekend. AND having to deal with my mom on top of it all. That just makes it all the more tiring cuz it's so draining having to deal with her. BUT she's helping, so i'm tolerating. Like she's all bugged cuz it's taking me so long to move. Yeah, i'm just doing it after work and crap, so yeah, it's not going to be all that quick. I did take a couple days off last week to do stuff. My fuck toy let me borrow his truck when i was off, so that helped considerably. Then I went back to work on friday to rest before the weekend's moving. Now i'm back and work and just sooo tired! At least I have tennis tonight after work so I won't be able to really move much of anything. I can just get some rest tonight. And see how much my mom has moved today! She said she was going to come into town and pack and move crap for me! woohoo!! THAT'S why i tolerate her! HAHA!

Happy Homo...

...wner. When i was going home from closing I called my mom and said that i just became a homeowner she goes, "HOMO??" So i had to repeat myself. She started cracking up and told my dad that I became a homo as she was cackling to herself. So holy crap! I have a house!! On Sunday me and my mom went running around getting a few things. She got me a screen door and a new faucet for my kitchen. I got some bathroom stuff, a curved shower curtain rod, towel rods and some little accessories that were on clearance! shower curtain, waste basket, toothbrush holder, soap dish. ALL in the color I wanted and those were the only color that was on clearance! The same exact style ones in different colors were regular price! HHAAHA!! So last night I took a few boxes to the house and installed my towel hangers. I had one rod and one ring for a hand towel. i might do my curtain rod tonight. then my bathroom will pretty much be done. i'll just need to move the rest of my bathroom stuff over. It's gonna take me forever to move cuz before I actually got the house, i just wasn't motivated to do anything cuz i didn't have a house yet! But NOW! Yikes! i have a ton of stuff to move!! it's going to be insane! I'm taking a day or two off this week to get crap taken care of. Probably tomorrow and thursday. EEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!

Closing rescheduled

Ok, closing was supposed to have been yesterday. But there was some delay with the paperwork. So now it's scheduled for tomorrow. And i still don't have an amount that i need to take in with me! They are really on the ball with this. Are they usually this retarded?? This is my first experience, so i don't know. But yikes. It's like no one is communicating with each other. They are very on top of it. But oh! I went to do another quick little walk thru on Monday just to check things out cuz it had been raining like mad the past few days and it's a flat roof and has a skylight, so i wanted to see if it leaked. Well, it leaks. The skylight does, not the roof itself. It hasn't rained since Sunday and it doesn't look like it will anytime soon either. So as soon as i take possession i'm going to have someone out there to look at it and get it fixed properly. Cuz I went up on the roof on monday to check it out. The skylight, first of all, has caulking all around it. HA! So naturally that's dried up and peeled away from the skylight. Hence the leak. That's it. I didn't think that was any major deal. And the seller is going to give me more of a repair credit for that. So that's cool. So now the closing is scheduled for 3pm tomorrow. So well see if this one goes thru!

House

And not the one with Hugh Laurie....sigh...oh well. A girl can dream. But anyway, things are progressing nicely with the house I put an offer on last month. Closing is drawing near. I'm beginning to feel twinges of excitement about this. My mom is still more excited about this than I am at this point. It's not mine yet, no reason to be all excited for something that isn't mine. She doesn't understand that. But I said when I get the keys in my hot little hands, THEN it'll be a different story. Just waiting now. Closing should be next week sometime.

Delirious

It was another late night. It was my friend R's birthday party. So I couldn't leave early. That would be rude. HAHAHA!! Of course by the end there were only 4 of us left! So three of them were going out to breakfast and I was pooped and said I was going home. But he asked me to go, so I couldn't disappoint him on his birthday, so I went. We were at Village Inn for over 2 hours! But holy crap we were having a freaking blast!! We were talking about sex and mexicans doing yard work and tv and Neitzche and the theory of warp drives and transporters. It was awesome! I even got in on that last one, and the other girl there just gave me this odd look when i popped into that conversation, cuz it started out just the two boys arguing about some "details" about warp drive and whatnot. And then when I got in, i can't even explain the look she gave me. Probably partly that I actually knew what they were talking about and then partly a don't encourage them look. But I'm really not sure, but it amused me. So there were three of us arguing about warp! It was hilarious! So when we finally left the building, we were out front for a while talking still. Then D had to go back in to go to the bathroom and R says something about how she's a great lady, she's really nice, but she needs to have her fucking head examined. I died laughing! But it's so true! HAHA!! So we hung out a bit longer up there then finally left. It was just about 4 when I got home. So I only got about 3 hours of sleep so I'm completely out of it! Although it's no different than normal these days!!

My First Time...

It was GREAT!! It was with three guys and they were very patient with me. I had some idea how it's done since I've been watching a lot. So that helped. They gave me tips and suggestions. They took a lot themselves, I don't know why. Many times I was there and in place and ready for it, but one of the other guys would jump in my way and take it instead. You'd think that since I was new that I should take as much that came my way as I could to get used to it. I did take a good number of them and most of the time did what I needed to do with it. It was a lot more work than I thought it would be. Which isn't a bad thing. But it was still a total blast and I'm definitely going to be doing it more now that I got my first time over with!! And the guys did say they'd do it with me again!! I can't wait!!

Weekend

I'm finally getting over being sick. I bummed around Saturday with JoAnne. We went to the pool and i got a bit more tanned. And a tad burned on my back. I got a new bikini so I wore that. And like an idiot, I actually tried swimming in it. Boobies everywhere!!! I wonder how many little boys were underwater with their goggles. Or how many daddies? HAHAHAHA!! But it was fun. The water felt SO good! And just lounging around was great. Then we went to lunch and just sat and talked. There at the club, so we were still in our suits. It was great! Saturday night I ended up going to the bar (go figure) and had a great time. I actually sang karaoke again!! T & I discovered that we're both pathetic. Long ol story. But it has to do with boys. So that's another thing me & my sis can bond about. Oh crap, have I mentioned that? There are like 5 different people now who think we are sisters! It's rather amusing. We stopped denying it and just roll with it. Like this one guy always asks one or the other of us, if we are alone, so where is your sister? so we just answer now instead of trying to argue with him. so that's just become another one of our running jokes. so oh, on sunday i had to work the track & field event. starting at 7am. last year we were done about 2pm. this year we didn't leave til 5:30. that's a damn long day in the heat. and i wasn't even on the field! i was just doing check in and selling shirts and stuff!! so the people who were working the actual events were completely miserable. i think we had a record heat day. or pretty damn near. yesterday was a record heat day, i know that. so when i got home i changed into my bikini and turned on my sprinkler in the backyard and ran thru it and got nice and wet. sat in my lawn chair reading for a bit...til i fell asleep. slept about an hour then went inside and got in bed and crashed out. i slept a good 11 hours. it was great!

Memorial Weekend

Memorial weekend is always a helluva weekend. We have the NM Games basketball tournament that runs from Friday thru Monday. And I have to work ALL of it. Starting my regular day on friday at 8. Then we went to Johnson gym at about 2:30 I think to start setting up. I started check in at 4:30 for the first game at 5:30. Last game was at 9:30. So after the last game and cleaning up and whatnot we left at 11. Then Saturday had to be there at 6:45 to start check in at 7 for 8am games. Last game was at 9pm. Cleaned up and left at 10:30. Now, instead of doing the responsible thing and going home and sleeping, I decided I'd go to Sneakerz for a "quick" drink. HAHAHAHAA!!! What a maroon!! So I went, had a drink, chatted with folks then started to leave and said bye to everyone. But then i HAD to stay to listen to so-and-so sing...then someone else...then someone else.... then i had to say bye again. HAHA! left my glasses then came back to get them. Then someone snagged my ID from my pocket. So spent quite a while trying to retrieve that. Finally gave up and started to leave, then Dee came running out saying she found it. So I was out WAY longer than I intended to be. Got to sleep about 1am i think. Had to be at the gym again at 6:45. Again the last game was at 9. Left at 1030 again. Then monday, 6:45, BUT this was semi-final and finals day, so the last game was at 1 i think. So afterwards we had to clean up AND tear down and pack up. We were done about 3. Got invited to a BBQ/Pool Party afterwards. So of course i went. Had a couple of drinks and jumped in the pool. Ahh....it felt good!! Then went inside and munched then flopped on the couch and nearly dozed off. Then i decided it was best to get going home before i totally passed out cuz who knows how long i'd be unconscious. So got home and passed out for ELEVEN HOURS!!! HAHAAHAA!! And i'm SURE i could have slept more!! Damn work!! So I ended up going home early Tuesday. That was nice. Went home and relaxed. Took a fun little pain killer a friend of mine gave me and it totally killed my pain in my chest and back from coughing and even that little thing in my throat that was making me cough. It was beautiful. Went to sleep early again. Slept like a rock again, still could have slept more. It hasn't gotten better so I have a dr. appt today. I hope I get some good drugs.

What song should you strip to?

Your Stripper Song Is

Pour Some Sugar on Me by Def Leppard "Love is like a bomb, baby, c'mon get it on Livin' like a lover with a radar phone Lookin' like a tramp, like a video vamp Demolition woman, can I be your man?" Break out the baby oil, you rock it old school.

What Song Should You Strip To?

Birthday

And then I had a great birthday lunch at Le Cafe Miche with my good friend Joanne. I'd never been there before and never would have thought of it. I had no clue what it was or where it was and that it was so close to my work. So we met there and had a seafoody lunch. Crabcake appetizer and seafood crepes and I forgot what it was called but a little pot of creamy cheesey garlicky scallops. It was sooo good! I was so stuffed!! It was great!

The Big Three-Oh

My thirtieth birthday has been off to a tremendous start! I started partying yesterday going to a friend's party right after work hanging out, drinking margaritas and having fun. Then headed to the bar and hung out with good friends and had a grand ol time. They even got me to sing karaoke! HAHA!! Started the birthday festivities a day early and I really had a super time. All the way to this morning. Had a great conversation with a good friend last night. Got to work and saw Alb. fire & rescue and AA scraping up people from the freeway right in front of my office. I always love carnage...blood and gore and guts....then when i finished gawking i came inside and my friend here decorated the hell out of my desk! It was great! I'm wearing birthday streamer in my hair as a headband. Streamers are all above me, balloons and a bendy flower and i got cupcakes and she got me a Titanium SPORK!!!! I have a thing for sporks...and she found me a REAL SPORK!! So when we ate cupcakes, i ate it with my new spork! HAHA!! I know, I'm a dork, but WHO CARES?!?!! It's my BIRTHDAY!! I can be as dorky as I wanna be today!!! Not that it ever stops me any other time. hehe!!

Violated

Yesterday I got home from work at about 5:15. Noticed a couple things looked a little odd. Then noticed something else looked more than odd. My kitchen window was broken out. Broken glass all over. A bunch of change got taken. About $200 worth. Including about $100 worth of $1 coins in a little phone box that a friend brought me from England. My PlayStation2 and PS2 games. That's it. Oh, well and a nylon duffle bag to haul my stuff away in. So at least that's ALL that got taken. It could have been much more. But still!! I feel terribly violated!! And all the hassle this causes. And now I need to get another PS2. And then find all those games again that I had. A few of them won't be hard to find. But a few others I had a hard time finding in the first place and had to keep looking and looking. So that'll be annoying. Don't know when I'm going to get another one. I'm housesitting this week. Maybe I can set that money aside to get a new PS2. And two of those games I just got in the past week cuz I finally found them!!! That's really damn annoying. So after the investigator was finished, he showed me that he pulled 4 good prints off of the window frame where he came in. So that was exciting. So I called a friend of mine to come over and stay the night with me. So that was good. He helped me relax. My three glasses of wine and no food since lunch helped too. Had a good night. Definitely not all paranoid and freaked out if I would have just stayed by myself.

Business as Usual

On Tuesday afternoon last week, we were informed at work that we had to pack up the entire place by Friday for the movers to come first thing Saturday morning to move. We knew we were going to be moving sometime. But no one would ever tell us when. So this is how we find out. With three days notice. Nice. So the week was just nuts. Plus our whatever the hell he's called, department head or something, gave us this assignment that needed to be done TODAY (i think that was on Thursday) and he needed it by noon. So one of my co-workers was trying to relay the fact that we had a mere two days left to pack up our ENTIRE place and we'd get to it IF we could. Well no, he wouldn't have that. This is a priority. The city council needed it NOW for some dumb ass reason. And he told us that we should put everything else aside and do that because we should be operating "business as usual." Bull Crap!! goddamm! so then our direct supervisor called our head's supervisor and talked to him about this and tried to explain the situation to him. Turns out that our head was sitting on this project for about a week and just gave it to us on the day he needed to turn it back in. AND that we didn't need all that info that our head said he needed from us. It actually turned out to be a fairly easy assignment, but holy crap!! our head is one big idiot. Total pointy haired boss. So our stuff got moved this weekend. Mostly. Cuz the building we are supposed to be going into isn't ready yet. So we're going to be transplanted into one of the other division's offices until it is ready. My coworker and I will have to share an office AND ONE PHONE. NO internet. So our desks and computers aren't actually moving until tomorrow since we have to do that ourselves. At least our bill for the moving company won't be as much since they aren't going to be moving all that they thought they were going to. But eeegads, this is totally going to suck. I mean, me and A are good friends and all, but sharing an office is a Totally different story! HAHAHA!!!

Well, work is getting busier, so that's one good thing. I got my six month evaluation done yesterday. 7.5 months after i was hired in this position. So I believe I should have some backpay coming for a raise that i should have gotten Feb 6! That'll be cool!! That will help contribute to the home buying cause!!

I went to see the loan lady with my dad on Wednesday so he could help understand and ask questions. She was such a flake. I told her I wanted a $100k loan. So she started saying stuff about with a 5% down then it'll be a $95k loan and blah blah blah and i'm like what? What happened to the $100k? I have to make a downpayment on my loan in addition to the down payment on the house?? So she was all oh, that's why you told me you wanted a $100k loan. Duhhh. (she said that, she said duhh. very professional. i feel like i'm in very capable hands!) what a fruit cake. So anyway, we arrived at the heart of the matter. Got a great interest rate on it too. so we're going with that. now i just need to find a house!! I have an appointment with a real estate agent on saturday. So let the games begin!!

No go

Well, my mom called me last night about the house I was looking at. The lady who owns it called her for some dumbass reason and not me. Said that they got an offer for more money and they are closing next week. So oh well. But one good thing about it is that she kinda freaked out when an inspection was mentioned. Asking why I need one and that the house is fine and there's no reason to get one. So that was fishy. And then my mom said that she also said that she's still thinking about selling. But if they are closing next week it doesn't seem like there's much to think about is there? So that situation turned out weird and perhaps it's for the best that I didn't get that. Although if she was weirded out about an inspection maybe I would have found out something even before I bought it anyway. So back to the beat. Got to wander around again looking for homes that are way overpriced for the little pieces of crap that they are and try to find another one that I can live with.

Home search

I've been considering buying a house for a while now. But since I have a real full time job now, it's much more of a possibility. So I've been looking around some lately. My mother has also been helping me look since she works fewer hours than I do, so she wanders around looking for homes for sale in areas I like. She did find one over the weekend that is priced ridiculously low for it's size and location. it is missing a couple of things that I was specifically looking for. but those things i can't get for the price i can afford. it does need some fixing up. but just from what i could tell going around the place, most everything it needs done is cosmetic. so that's not a problem. i can take my time taking care of those things. As long as they are not necessary repairs, it doesn't matter and it's a freaking steal. now, i'm a little scared that my mom picked a house for me that i like. so either i was very clear about what i wanted or else we have similar tastes. that is very much the scary part. cuz my mother is a freaking weirdo. but this house just seems so totally great for me!! it's about the size i want. a little smaller actually, but quite a bit bigger than the other houses in my price range! so i gotta go with what i'm able to get. so that's a definite plus. just over 1300 sqft. and it's just me and my junk. and i have a ton of junk. i have a 2br house filled up right now. so spreading it out in a 3br will be nice. i think i really like that house cuz i've already started planning in my mind where i'm going to put things!!! and it has sooo many of the things that i DO want in a house, so those few that it doesn't, i can do without. and besides, those things can be fixed anyway so i do have them! so HA! I just called the lady and told her i'm interested and would like to see a purchase agreement and get things going!! WOOHOOO!!!

Oooooohhhhhh my goodness!!

Joanne reminded me of something that happened on that last day in Vegas. We were walking down the street and I was off in la-la land somewhere. This guy walking towards us was apparently staring directly at my tits and as we are approaching and passed he goes "Ooooooooooohhhhhhhh my goodness!!!" not at all quietly and Joanne just started dying and I had no idea what was wrong with her. Then she told me. I guess I noticed him looking in my general direction but didn't notice what particulars he was looking at. It happens a lot, so I guess I'm used to it and don't pay much attention. But it amused J highly, so that was worth it all.

We're not buying any more drinks unless they are free!

OMG!! Vegas was GREAT!!! We had so much fun!! We walked a TON. When we ate at the buffets on saturday and sunday, we ate a TON! And when I got home I weighed myself and was 4lbs lighter than the last time I weighed myself on Thursday or Friday! HAHAA! We also went dancing Saturday night at this club at the Rio. The Voodoo Lounge I think it was called. Up on the roof. It was so cool!! Weird little guys kept coming up to hump my leg, but other than that, it was great! And the fact that my feet were absolutely dying at the end of the night and my toes were numb. My second toe on my left foot is still kinda numb. So that's not good I'm sure. But on Friday when Joanne was all buzzed and goofy, she came to a conclusion about purchasing our alcohol for the weekend. She said, and i quote, "We're not buying any more drinks unless they are free!" So that became our motto for the weekend! Man, she was a blast! She's such a goofball! I had so much fun with her. We definitely need to do that again!!!

Still going!!

I woke up at 5am this morning feeling absolutely terrible. My throat was killing me and it hurt so bad! So I ate a popsicle. I discovered popsicles don't last indefinitely in the freezer even thought they are individually wrapped. But it was cold and that felt good. Then i had some rainbow sherbert. Then looked up the location of the nearest urgent care and called to see when they are open. I went back to bed for an hour or so. Got up, showered and headed to urgent care. They did the strep swab and all that. But I don't have strep. Just some generic viral infection. The doc gave me some anti-virals which she said don't usually work, but you never know. I said I'd like something since I'm going to Vegas tomorrow!!! So she suggested that i drink as much of whatever I like to make me feel better! HAHA!! I like her!! And to win some money in Vegas cuz that'll help too! HAHA! she gave me somt 800mg ibuprofen for the swelling of the tonsils and the lymph nodes. That has helped i'm thinking. Two of my nodes that were swollen and hurting are much better now. One of them I can't even feel anymore. So no worries, i am still going to Vegas. Like i said before no matter what!! I did all sorts of laundry last night, so all I have to do tonight is pack!! And I'm ready to go!!!

Vegas - No matter what!

I've got a bit of a cold right now. When it started out a couple days ago, I thought it was just allergies and i took an allergy pill and it didn't really do much. So this morning I tried some day quil. That seemed to work quite nicely. So I'm dosing up to try to get rid of it before me and Joanne go to Vegas on Friday!!! I'm so excited!! I haven't really been anywhere in a couple of years. It's very sad. And I haven't been to Vegas in about 5 years! Although I guess I should count visiting my best friend in Colorado Springs as going somewhere. But that doesn't seem like much of a vacation cuz I drive there and that's damn hard. I've started getting ready to go. Did some laundry and cleared out my travel bag from when I last used it for housesitting. It's a tad before 10 and I'm thinking I better get my butt to bed so I can rest up and try to get healthy by Friday afternoon!!

Just a dream....phew....

I had the most horrible dream! I was with a friend of mine and we were out at some store and I was supposed to be meeting JoAnne at the airport for our 3:55pm flight to Las Vegas. So when I looked at the clock it was 3:44!! And I didn't have a car! So I started walking down the block and was going to try to hitch to the airport. So I see this guy in a tricked out El Camino and I told him, Look, I don't know where you are headed, but I Really need to get to the airport! and he said sure, no problem. And then I woke up. But it was terrible!! I felt so bad! JoAnne was waiting for me and I couldn't get a hold of her on her cell phone and I was going to miss the flight. I didn't have my luggage with me, so I don't know what the heck was happening with that! That was pretty scary. I don't want anything to happen that will prevent me from going to Vegas next week!!

In a groove

I'm finally in a cleaning groove. I've been dying to get my house cleaned and i kind of do a bit here and there, but nothing that really makes it look like i did anything. so now i'm just on a total roll with throwing crap away and making room. i don't have much storage space in my house and i have a lot of shit, and the two just don't mix. i was just on a break having a little bite to eat and thought i'd get some junk out of my head.

me & my friend joanne are going to vegas in a couple of weeks and i'm soooo freaking excited! i haven't been on a vacation, even a little weekend getaway in quite a while. this is going to be great!

i swear i had more stuff to talk about but now i absolutely don't remember. hmm....no clue. better get my butt back to cleaning before it gets too used to sitting down tonight!!

Babies...Better you than me

Last night my best friend called and left a message saying she is driving down to visit. She knew that I would know exactly what that meant: her little sister is ready to have her second baby. She wasn't able to get down here the first time for the actual birth. But this time she decided she is coming down no matter what to see it. Since she is never going to have a kid unless there is an oops. And she figures that a birth is something you have to see at least once in your life in person. I'm never going to have one either, so her sister is the only chance. Maybe I'll get to witness the birth of her third child. I so don't get it. The desire to have kids. I do not have that at all whatsoever, nothing, nada, zero, zilch. Oh well. I certainly don't feel like I'm missing anything. I guess I will when I'm old and wrinkley and I need someone to drive me to get my Depends and my pills.

New Shoes

I finally took my car in on Saturday to get new tires and an alignment. I thought I only needed 2 tires, but since my alignment was all out of whack, all the tires needed replacing. So I actually got a pretty good deal and ended up paying just under $400 for all 4 tires and the alignment and labor and everything. Man, did it feel better! Taking turns and corners used to be a little squirrelly and I'd have to slow down a lot. But now, I can take them like I like to and boy do I stick to the road!! it's great!!

Oooh, speaking of sticking to the road...or not rather...I saw a killer accident on my way home from bowling Saturday night. It was on the frontage road that I always take when I get off the freeway to get home. It was blocked off with a couple of ambulances and police cars, so I couldn't see much. Just what looked like the undercarriage of a vehicle facing the traffic. The cops diverted us back up the one way to the last street so I was unable to get a good view. But someone had to be hauling some serious ass to flip on that stretch of road. It's level and there is a gentle curve. But I guess if you are flying and you oversteer, you could probably do it. Couldn't tell what kind of vehicle it was from just the underside. Why do I have this fascination with stuff like that?? Why do I think it's cool?? And if it was some asshole flying thru there being a jerk, then they deserved it. I just wish it would happen to more of those assholes out there. But usually it's some innocent other person who gets thrashed by that idiot running a red light or drunk driving or whatever and nothing happens to the person who caused it. That's the only part that's not cool. But I say, if you are drunk or an asshole driver, just go drive yourself into a brick wall and save us all the trouble of having to deal with you. wow, i went off on a tangent there. oh well. i'm over it.

Insanity in my own Backyard

It's amazing the fucked up things you find out about your family when you are an adult. There have been issues with my mother's parents lately about my grandpa, who is a parapalegic, and my grandma who we seemed to think was getting alzheimers. She hasn't been taking care of my grandpa all that well and when nurses are sent to take care of him, my grandma kicks them out. She puts him in the hospital and some of his decubidi (bedsores - stage 4, bleech!) tend to heal up some. But then when he gets home, they get worse again. And back in he goes. My mom suspects my grandma has been debriding them herself somehow and then he goes into shock when she does that so has to go back into the hospital again. She wants him gone, she wants him home. She says that she won't take care of him and won't feed him, she says that she's taking great care of him. It's just been an insane roller coaster ride that I have been fortunate enough to keep myself out of, but it's driving my mom and aunt insane.

The latest drama had my mom picking my grandpa up from the hospital to take back home. Grandma got wind of this and called the hospital and said that she can't take him. She ended up taking him home anyway and was met there by my aunt and a nurse. My grandma actually said, in front of the nurse even (she usually doesn't do it in front of non-family members), that she wasn't going to take care of him and isn't going to feed him and that he can just die there cuz she's sick of taking care of him. So the nurse called adult social services saying that she didn't think he'd be safe there and told them what she had said. They sent a social worker out there who stayed and talked to my grandparents alone for quite a while. When he came out he said that he didn't see anything wrong and they sound perfectly fine. He left and my mom and aunt were still there and then tried to see their parents again. This time my grandma had her son on the phone (he lives out of state) and whatever she had told him he demanded to speak with my mom and aunt and he started yelling at them telling them to leave their parents alone and that he was going to call the police if they didn't leave. So who knows what she told him. She has also been trying to tell people that my grandpa has dementia so she can get him committed. But whenever he is in the hospital, no one observes any signs of dementia so they can't diagnose it and cannot commit him without his consent.

After that happened my mom came and talked to me about it. Then she said that her and her sister have been talking about it and thinking back and remembering that their mom had always been like that. She'd get mad for no apparent reason, deny she said or done things, accused people of taking things or moving things when she had removed them herself. But they grew up with that and just thought it was normal. All that was new to me. I thought that this was a recent development. Even though I spent a lot of time with them when I was a kid, I never really saw this kind of behaviour from her. It was only about 5 or so years ago when I stopped visiting them and I would get yelled at for not going to visit them when I was visiting nearly every week. But grandma would get mad at me for not coming. Then my grandpa would get mad at me for not coming to see my grandma. So after a while it got so bad I decided I didn't need to deal with that. If they were going to yell at me and accuse me of not visiting then I would at least deserve the accusations and not visit. That's when I first noticed her behaviour. But my mom said she'd always been like that. And she told me that when she found out she was pregnant with me (she was still living at home) her mom started punching her in the stomach. She said "I packed my things and that's when your dad came and took me away."

You always know that your family isn't quite right. But it's quite a shock to hear these things. So now, my mom and aunt are thinking that their mom has some sort of personality disorder. Another note, my grandma has been a nurse all her life. So I'm sure she knows what she has and how to hide it from the right people. Cuz that's what she does. Anyone who can do anything about it to help her, her own doctors, the social worker, she is able to hide it and seem absolutey normal and rational. Even my grandpa backs her up. I don't know if it's just because he's protecting her because she's his wife, or if there is something else up there. But with both of them giving the same happy little story, no one can do anything about it. Sigh....

Home Again

I'm finally home after two weeks of housesitting. It was nice because I got to crank the heat up unlike at home. I have dumb ol floor furnaces and they are just hell. Nevermind, they are not hell, cuz if they were, they'd be warmer. I like my old house but some things are just too old. The only hard part about coming home is that I've let all my crap pile up because I have just come home to bring in my mail and to drop stuff off and pick stuff up. So anything I dropped off just got left where it landed. And then now I brought back everything, so all that is waiting to be put away. It's such a pain. But I'm home with all my music, my surround sound, movies, my fish and my king size bed and flannel sheets. And no dog hair everywhere. It's really quite cozy if you can get over the freezingness of the place. I was running late this morning trying to move the rest of my stuff out and get to work. I already know I left my phone charger and my milk. Who knows what else I left. I'm so great at postponing the clean up process of coming back home. And now it's late and I really should get to bed so I'm well rested for work. HAHA! Like I worry about that any other day!! But it's a great excuse that comes in handy when I don't want to work around my house!

Dad's Goin Down!

Well, I didn't make it to take my car in. My dad called this morning and asked if I wanted to play tennis. So I did that instead. We just hit for quite a while then we decided to play a set. I beat him in that set 6-4. Then we played another. I was up 5-4 and probably about to win there and I stepped on a ball and twisted my ankle a little bit. It didn't hurt bad, but it was definitely enough to slow me down. So my dad caught up and we ended up taking that second set to a tiebreaker. And I won the tie breaker 7-4! For the First time in my LIFE I beat my dad!!! And I beat him in straight sets!!! WOOHOO!! He did catch up after I hurt my ankle but he was still a bit disappointed that I still beat him being gimpy. But we were playing for about 3.5 hours!! So we were both pretty pooped. So I popped some advil and iced it right away after we finished. Then I got taken out to lunch! woohoo!!! And I even have leftovers! woohoo!! Probably time to go ice again. I better go into the den and elevate it on the recliner. Might as well play some video games while I'm in there! Still no ps1 memory card....